I seem to be juggling burnout along with my responsibilities this week. It's very distressing, because I can't seem to focus on work and can't seem to get anything done even if I do. I talked about having vacation days a few weeks back, and I think maybe I'm going to have to do that... or to be more precise, my brain is making me do that. I still have the rest of the week to work on things, but I feel (and am) very behind.
I may end up needing to take a vacation day or two. That's not the worst possible thing, but it upsets me to miss a day (or several) after having an unbroken streak of updates for years. I guess what's most disheartening to me is that I can't seem to duck my head and suffer through it the way I have other challenges. Part of it is probably because the only deadlines for this blog are mine, and those feel less final than someone else's imposed deadlines. Still, I'd like to do better... but my brain simply isn't letting me. At some point, you have to respect that a brick wall is a brick wall and won't give, rather than continuing to try to headbutt it down.
So that said, if I miss this week's Friday entry, I'm very sorry, and I hope to get back on track soon.
I've spent most of the last few days reading familiar books, old webcomics, and other comforting things in hopes of soothing myself and getting refocused so I can get back to work. I may just need a whole week of that, or something. The fact that the fabric for the blackout curtains is finally going to come in soon is probably going to help, too. When that happens, I can finally get blackout curtains made and put up, and hopefully sleep better as a result. It's been months, and the lack of sound sleep in the morning is probably wearing on me.
In happier news, I'll get to celebrate another monthaversary (like anniversary, but for each month) with my spouse today. We do a little miniature togetherness celebration each month on the 13th (the day of the month we were married, and also started dating). We give each other small presents, or go out to eat, and just generally spend time together. It's kind of like having a date night, but once a month. This month we both got each other Dungeons and Dragons-themed Tshirts, but the shirts are late, so we'll go out to eat together and Chris won't have to cook today, which is kind of a double treat for him.
Other happy news: the trip to the chiropractor was a success. I no longer feel like my legs are on the verge of falling asleep. I wasn't sure if the adjustment had fixed the problem at first, and was hyperfocusing on my legs, which also made it hard to tell what was going on. But after I forgot a bit about the problem, it seemed to clear up. I now seem to have my regular leg problems, rather than disturbing new ones.
I may end up needing to take a vacation day or two. That's not the worst possible thing, but it upsets me to miss a day (or several) after having an unbroken streak of updates for years. I guess what's most disheartening to me is that I can't seem to duck my head and suffer through it the way I have other challenges. Part of it is probably because the only deadlines for this blog are mine, and those feel less final than someone else's imposed deadlines. Still, I'd like to do better... but my brain simply isn't letting me. At some point, you have to respect that a brick wall is a brick wall and won't give, rather than continuing to try to headbutt it down.
So that said, if I miss this week's Friday entry, I'm very sorry, and I hope to get back on track soon.
I've spent most of the last few days reading familiar books, old webcomics, and other comforting things in hopes of soothing myself and getting refocused so I can get back to work. I may just need a whole week of that, or something. The fact that the fabric for the blackout curtains is finally going to come in soon is probably going to help, too. When that happens, I can finally get blackout curtains made and put up, and hopefully sleep better as a result. It's been months, and the lack of sound sleep in the morning is probably wearing on me.
In happier news, I'll get to celebrate another monthaversary (like anniversary, but for each month) with my spouse today. We do a little miniature togetherness celebration each month on the 13th (the day of the month we were married, and also started dating). We give each other small presents, or go out to eat, and just generally spend time together. It's kind of like having a date night, but once a month. This month we both got each other Dungeons and Dragons-themed Tshirts, but the shirts are late, so we'll go out to eat together and Chris won't have to cook today, which is kind of a double treat for him.
Other happy news: the trip to the chiropractor was a success. I no longer feel like my legs are on the verge of falling asleep. I wasn't sure if the adjustment had fixed the problem at first, and was hyperfocusing on my legs, which also made it hard to tell what was going on. But after I forgot a bit about the problem, it seemed to clear up. I now seem to have my regular leg problems, rather than disturbing new ones.
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